The Mask I'm wearing..

"Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the face I wear.
I wear a mask.
I wear a thousand masks - masks that I am afraid to take off, and none of them are me.
Pretending is an art that is second nature to me, but don't be fooled. For my sake, don't be fooled.
I give the impression that I am at peace, that all is sunny and unruffled within me as well as without, that confidence is my name and coolness my game; that the water is calm and I am in command, and that I need no-one.
But don't believe me please. My surface may seem very smooth, but my surface is my mask, my ever-varying and ever- concealing mask. Beneath lies no smugness, no compliance. Beneath dwells the real me in confusion, in fear, in aloneness. I hide that. I don't want anybody to know it. I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind - non-chalant, sophisticated facade - to help me pretend, to sheild me from the glance that knows. But such a glance is precisely my liberation, my only peace, and I know it.
That is, it's followed by acceptance if it's followed by love. It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself, from my own self built prison wall, from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that can assure me of what I can't assure myself - that I am really something...
I am who I am ? Who am I ? You may wonder. I am someone you know very well. I am every man you meet. I am every woman you meet. I am every child you meet. I am right in front of you."Please - LOVE me !"