Lost my sense of daily living..

Have I lived up to my own expectations? NO! Have not. Am I unable, is my being unable? So it seems. It seems we are all our worst enemy. Today is an exampalary day..



Everything seems so undeserving to me.. Everything cries and bleeds, with hopeless eyes. This illusion has captured us. We are confused "what is right" "what is wrong", is there such thing. What makes you better than me.. Or better, is there any YOU or ME? Your purity, your calmness, your angelic views of life. Whose is that? Why all of this? Man what is the purpose. We are tired of analysing..



There is no such thing as inherent existence they say. Reflect on it they say. They say you dont exists, neither anyone else. The mind and body exists, but there isnt any you in it. Perception through senses exist, thoughts exists, hence conciousness.. But no U exists. Try to realise this. It currently enwraps my whole being.. I catch myself denying it. Catch myself diving into ignorance. Ignorance is the root of all suffering they say. Learn, understand they say. Abandon all that contradicts logic and experience they say. Dont believe blindly they say. Compassion is the highest good they say. How can they lie? They say everything is conditioned, impermanent. Nothing lasts forever, no happiness, no breath.. Dettach, seclude, concentrate, clear.. Dont get caught in Mayas trap they say.



Do not stress yourself, find your peace. On your own record. Slowly but surely.. they say!



And it confuses me more, makes me cry everyday. Lost my sense for daily things. Cant find myself anymore. What is this all about?